The City That Never Sleeps




posted : Tuesday, August 18, 2015
title : Depressed
Coming to camp is probably by far the most pointless and depressing thing I've ever felt Thus far. Studying things that I probably won't even use in the future might be pointless, but this takes pointless to a whole new level. I'm literally sick and tired of this whole thing. Got some new rule that says we need to stay-in, and now the office is being taken over by others. Good job, really. Now not only do I lose my office, I have to sleep in a bunk where there is only 1 bloody fan working. This is seriously some messed up shit. And then I have to deal retarded nonsense every day. My God,  this is killing me. This is just too damn depressing. Damn it.

And right now I'm in camp. ALONE. Freaking hell, everyone takes MC today. Maybe I should have done the same thing. Why are I always so dumb. Urgh. Screw this shicant

Really can't see the point in doing this. And I have to endure this shit for a good 1 year plus more.

posted : Sunday, May 31, 2015
title :
Ultimate and Rock Climbing are pretty much the 2 sports that my life revolves around now. Climbing happened after I retained, and so did Ultimate. Not saying that I am happy I got retained, but just wanna feel thankful that retaining turned out to be not a bad thing after all.

It has always been a joy to be up on the wall, until a few months back when I realised that I somehow lost the joy for climbing. Sucks to admit it, but the love I had for this sport sort of diminished through the course of BMT. Tried so hard to get back the feeling and passion for the sport, and I only found it last friday while climbing with my juniors.

Ultimate on the other hand hasn't been the sport that I would foresee myself devoting so much time to. But that sort of changed when I had the chance to participate in Games Day in BMT. But ever since then I have been devoting more time to the sport, going back for trainings and all.

But then even though I am going for trainings and learning new things along the way, the level of knowledge my juniors have easily surpasses mine, Feeling so helpless whenever I go back, since I don't know anything at all and my fitness is nowhere near theirs. Perhaps climbing is the sport that I can at the end of the day fall back onto, while Ultimate will just be nothing more than a sport that I enjoy.

posted : Saturday, April 18, 2015
title :
Gonna be all words and no pictures. Too lazy to upload any photos HAHA

Ever since A levels ended, things have been moving crazily fast. Decided to work at Onsight so that I could earn so money whilst doing what I love, yet I ended up being able to climb as and when I wanted, for free, at Onsight. That was when I started to really train hard for Gravical 2015. So I trained, and got 28/260+ for Gravical. So close to making finals and moving on to Inter category, but I guess my time to promote will come too. Managed to visit Kinetics and Climb Central gyms as well. Loved the experience!

Feb was enlistment for army, where I felt many emotions (mostly anticipation and excitement) on enlistment. But as the days (or rather, weeks) went by, my perspective and aspirations of the army changed. Went from wanting OCS to wanting a lepak life now. I got my posting yesterday (Friday), and I got into SCS. Not bad, because it is still a command school. YAY. But then, I have light duty for the next 3 months, which will result in me only starting on foundation term with the May intake people, instead of with my buddies. Damn.

Well, and I am back in Ultimate! Games Day in BMT got me back into the sport, and I am happy to be part of this family. 2 CCAs in AJ isn't too bad after all, and now I just hope that I can get back the joy and love I have for climbing.

posted : Monday, December 1, 2014
title : AJRC goes to Malaysia
A levels have officially ended about a week ago, and about 3 days after that I was on my way to Malaysia to climb with my climbers.
First stop was Putrajaya Challenge Park (PCP). Amazing advanced lead wall, however we only climbed on top rope and the intermediate lead wall. Hangers and quickdraws were rusty, but it still caught our fall nonetheless, which was good. And 4 of the routes that coach climbed on the advanced lead wall back in 2011 were still up, untouched. 
2nd day, we headed out to Batu Caves - Damai Wall. A really, really new experience for me, since it was my first time on natural rocks. The experience was amazing, although scary at first. The thought of falling just scared the hell out of me. But the cool part was that everyone would have a different beta, since the footholds and handholds were subjective to the individual climber.
Spent 2 days at Damai wall, and sadly I didn't get to lead on the routes on right. Would have been fun to do so, but damn, missed the chance. Oh well, at least I managed to finish the most fun route - Monsoon. The route on the right of monsoon was also quite fun HAHA
And I realised I was climbing so slowly I think I spent close to 20 mins up on the wall.
Day 4 (final day) was spent at Camp 5. Wonderful place, with awesome routes. Managed to climb faster than before, probably because I was back on plastic holds? But the 6a routes felt pretty damn difficult. And I shouldn't have called for tight so many times. Where has my fighting spirit gone to?

But it definitely felt great to have gone on this trip. Truly one of the most enjoyable one. 4 days of climbing. How awesome is that? HAHA

posted : Monday, July 28, 2014
title : J1 Mass Civics
Non Mihi Solum, maybe? I don't really know. But what I do know is that my reason for wanting to speak to the J1s was purely to help them get back up on their feet. 

Made a request to Mr Lee to speak to the J1s about how to cope with bad results for MYCTs (what's more, I've been at the bottom before), and it was quite a surprise that Mr Lee accepted it almost without any hesitation. So I was given about 2 days to think of what to say? Actually most of the content were rather impromptu, like it just came to me as I spoke.
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So I took the mike, thanked Mr Lee, and then established my ground first. Told them that I had been at the bottom before (0.0 percentile HAHA) and then proceeded on to tell them that all hope is not lost. Yes, you can sulk, you can put on a black face for the rest of the week or so, but after that you still have to do something about it. Can't just give up on everything right? I know being at the bottom feels hopeless as heck, but that struggle to get back on our feet is what makes us a better person, a stronger person, both mentally and emotionally. Then I told them about how they have to go for consultations if need be, and the new studying methods that they can adopt. Things like studying at specific timings, AKA the timings where most of us have our papers, like 0800-1100 and 1300-1600. It trains our mind, our brain to work harder at those specified timings if we were to study at those hours, and by the time they go for their exams, hopefully it will work out. And also, I included some of the knowledge I gained from Mr Lionel's sharing with my class earlier in the year, where we have to stick to our plans even if they don't work out initially. It is like how those rehabilitation programmes last for approximately 21-30 days for the smoker to quit smoking, because the brain takes about 3-4 weeks to learn a new habit. Hence, don't quit, don't stop, just keep going. Ended off by saying that percentile matters a lot, and that if I can survive after having been at the bottom, then so can everyone else.

Well that was for the first session. Second session was a little bit more 'anyhow', in a sense. Couldn't really get my words out. But I managed to tell them that they should never neglect their H1 subjects, since they also need adequate time devoted to them lest they come back and haunt you should you fail to do so. Ending was rather abrupt for the second session though (must be the awkward flow of thoughts). But I am glad to have been able to speak to the J1s. At least I know I tried to help them. 

And thank God for letting me be able to speak properly without any awkward silences in between and stuff like that. Amen.

posted : Sunday, July 13, 2014
title : Prayer.

知道这一切都是不可能,但我还是宁愿相信。
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Lord, take my feelings for this person away if it is not Your will. But, if this is the person You want for me, please let us love each other according to Your plan.


posted : Saturday, June 28, 2014
title :

因为总有一天,你一定会是属于我的。