Back at blogging after who knows how long it's been. (Rather lazy to look at the date of my last post)
Many stuff has happened since my last post (Promo exams until now). And frankly speaking, there are a lot more unhappiness going around than there should be. Resorting to this virtual space may not seem to be the best option to voice out what I'm feeling inside. But perhaps it's the only place that I can freely say what I wanna say. (Unless you readers out there confront me about whatever I'm about to write here)

Having to repeat my JC1 year isn't a pleasant thing at all. Or is it? To be honest, I kind of feel blessed, after I've met the teachers that are going to be with me for the next 2 years (hopefully). People I've met thus far have been pretty nice to me, although I do miss my old class at times. I don't know what got into me, but I don't really want to be class leader again this year. Maybe it's the emotional factor that's holding me back; that I would rather serve 02/12 instead of 02/13. I don't really know. Right now I'm just hoping that I do get a leadership position for CCA so that I will have a reason to push my class leader position to somebody else.

School has been pleasant for me so far. Switched from Basketball to Climbing this year and I haven't regretted, not even one bit. Somehow I just feel more attached to my current CCA compared to last year. Maybe it's because I get to train as and when I want to, regardless of the weather. Perks of having indoor facilities for CCA!

Was recently crowned the Sports Boy for Track & Field Meet 2013. Didn't really expect myself to actually claim top 3 positions for all 3 individual events. Was actually nervous when the 100m race was about to start on the event day itself, mainly because Jiang Tao (potential Sports Boy) was able to clinch the award if he ran 2nd or better. Luckily he didn't, which was a good thing.

School aside, things at home hasn't really been pretty of late. Waking up to the sounds of my parents quarreling and shouting. Can't really have peace at home. And if they aren't busy quarreling, then I would be their main target audience. Wonder what happened to my family, really. It's like, I don't even feel like I belong to this place anymore. I would much rather hang out with my friends, or maybe just be alone. Really, I don't feel any physical attachment to my family. (Although emotionally I still do care for them). I just hope that my dad would stop all his nonsensical acts like right now. Because seriously, I don't get why he is being such a dick. Knowing the error of his ways and refusing to do anything about it. And randonly raging at everyone in the house. If I didn't have to risk losing anything, I would have punched him already. And probably get into a whole lot of trouble.

And then there's the one thing that most peple probably wouldn't know, even if you're a close friend of mine - Her. I'm actually attached to her for about 11 & half months before we decided to call it quits. Oh wait, make that 'she', not 'we'. Honestly speaking, I don't know what went wrong this time round. I do admit that I somehow neglected her because of school, but at least I tried to be there for her. How can she just suddenly tell me that she stopped trying and decided to break up. And still want to be friends with me after that. Okay cool, I see where you're coming. But not bothering to add me on Facebook after you created a new one and somehow deactivated your old one, is that what you call friends? Wow, if that's your definition of 'remain as friends', then I guess I have nothing else to say.

My previous r/s, and the one before that, has taught me lots of things. Yes, I do miss them at times. But really, after the break up, I finally saw how immature girls are inside. No offence to any girls who are reading this, because maybe it's just the 2 of them that did this to me. Because I don't see the link between 'remain as friends' and 'ignoring you'. Honestly.
And I guess I won't be getting into another r/s anymore. It just sucks when you're trying to balance everything in life, and giving your best, only to find out at the end of the day that the other party has decided to stop trying and wants to leave. If you're reading this, don't get me wrong. I don't hate you or anything, nothing of that sort. It's just, I hope you will tell me what actually went wrong. Why did you stop trying? I don't get it. I tried my best, really. I know it's hard for a girl not to receive messages from her guy, but I really try my best to do so. You can't expect me to text you 24/7 right? I have my commitments too. Not trying to push the blame, just hoping that you understand what I'm feeling inside.

Sad to say, this is the end of now. Part of me feels lighter now, probably because I finally am able to write down what I feel inside. But there is still part of me that feels heavy. And that unhappiness can't be explained by mere words. Well, maybe not now I guess. But one day, if that day ever comes whereby I can again pen down my thoughts, then yeah, I will visit this virtual space again.

Have a great day readers!
无论什么是，开心就好.
No matter what happens, be happy.