Barely a week has passed since I took over the CCA (not really full-fledged Captain yet though) and I'm already very tied down by the numerous things that I have to do for the CCA. CCA photoshoot, farewell BBQ, new CCA tee, CCA Investiture, as well as my school work. 

Can't believe the amount of shit I have to do in a span of less than 3 weeks (didn't really bother to count). Got ticked off by Ronald for something I didn't do (relaying the details of the photoshoot to the J2s). Now I have to manage the farewell BBQ, think of what to say (video dedication) and get a gift (memento) for the CCA investiture. Luckily I don't have much to do for the new CCA tee, but then again, why am I doing so much on my own? Maybe it's because I don't really ask for help (usually), or maybe it's because there's no one taking the initiative to help. The thought of screwing up each event really just sucks man. I just hope that things turn out well in the end. *fingers crossed*

Training on Wednesday @ Onsight turned out to be a pretty good one. Managed to complete all the black routes at the advanced wall (if I total them all together) and 1 route set by coach. Wasn't really impressive, but I guess even a little bit of improvement is better than having none. 

Friday's session turned out to be a rather disappointing one though. First time I got so pumped I can't even complete my route on lane 3. Couldn't even hold onto a pinch, that's how bad it was. And we got ticked off by coach for packing up. Took way too long to coil ropes. Could have done better. In fact, we should have done a better job packing up. 

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Looking at my savings depleting like crazy, I really wonder how much money I'm gonna have come June holidays. Started off with $250+ in my savings, lost $50 to my bro over a stupid game, and currently I have less than a hundred (from CNY till now). Pocket money has been cut (from $9 to $8 per day thanks to some quarrel my mum had with my dad), and my dinner money has remained at $4. I seriously wonder, why $4. It's such a weird number. And what's more, what does she want me to eat with $4. And she still say things like she doesn't want me to stay out so she gives me that amount. I get what she is driving at, but I don't really have a choice. And she isn't helping me with my BBQ either. Gonna ask her for some money for BBQ, but I guess she will just tell me off for asking her for money. The thought of having to listen to her just turns me off. I don't even feel like asking anymore.

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Really, I'm just hoping that things will become better soon.

Soon.