If we can convince our mind and our heart that we like someone, then I am guessing that the reverse hold true too. Am I right to say that?

The reason why I would come to this reasoning is because, throughout my secondary school and JC days, I have met many girls, and somehow I would always have some feelings towards a certain girl. However, it was only until recently (JC 1 in 2012) that I actually found out that I am able to do so. Somehow, I succeeded in doing so. I don't know if this is a sign of the feelings being similar to that of an infatuation or something like that, whereby I just liked the girl, and nothing more beyond that.
And if that isn't the case, then perhaps my ability to convince the mind and heart that I don't like a certain someone after I have feelings for them is true. But, if those feelings were similar to that of an infatuation, then I guess my ability yo unlike someone isn't really much of an ability after all.
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I don't know if it is just me, but somehow, I can feel that you are trying to avoid me? Trying to have as little interaction with me as possible. I don't know, really. Or perhaps I am just thinking too much, as usual. I don't know, I tend to get all sensitive and over think easily over such things.
I know the type of guy that attracts you, and I know that I don't fit inside the picture. But if I were to change myself for you, in hopes of you accepting me, then that is something I probably would not do. I changed once, in my past. for this girl. She was my first crush, in primary 6. And because I couldn't win her heart, I changed. A lot. I went from the soft, unspoken kid to the loud one. I am who I am today - loud and all - because of this one girl in my primary school. And so, if i were to change again, I am afraid I might become a totally new person. And that, for the chance of you accepting me, man, that is one risk I am not very willing to take. I just wanna be myself. At least, if you were to accept me this way, I know that I am me and not faking my personality.
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是时候我放弃了这个不可能的梦。
You are like a dream I can't reach. So near, yet so far. Promos are on Monday, and right now it is 2:50am on a Saturday morning. This means that, I won't get to see you from after Promos until the post-promo lessons. Somehow, I wish I had no feelings for you. But then again, you made me look forward to school each day.

Ironic, but it is the truth. I like you.