Parents may be parents. But sometimes, I really can't take it. The way they scold me, sometimes I just want to leave the house and go somewhere alone. But I can't do that. I can't support myself.

虽然生气我的父母，但是每一次我愤怒，很想在 Twitter 写一些对他们不利的话时，我都会想到他们为了我所付出的一切。 很多东西，我没有告诉你们，是因为我觉得你们是不会了解的。 

我只是想要有个完整的家。 为什么我的爸爸会是这样的一个人。 为什么我的亲戚，一个个都是这样的。 做你们的亲戚，有多么的丢脸你知道吗？ 每一次回去拜年，都不能摆个臭脸。 知道我有多讨厌回去吗？  

不知道什么时候开始，我越来越少和家人一起出门吃饭和逛街。 每一次叫我出门，我多数都不会跟着去，很多时候的原因是 “我要读书。” 说真的，书是有读到，但是我却失去了和家人相处的时间。 这一切是值得吗？

我也不知道该说些什么才好。 有好多东西写，但是我却不知道是否那些不知道该从哪里开始，还是那些虽然有很多东西，但却在写的时候，一个字也写不出。

说真的，我好想念以前。 特别是那些小时候是我的好友，现在却没有和我说话。 也别忘了，最重要的一个人。 如果你了解我，应该猜得出是谁把。

I will earn the marathon finisher shirts. I will enter NUS.

Lastly, I will travel the world with a camera around my neck.

[Shall type in English from now on because I find it faster and in this case, easier to express myself.]

I don't know why my parents are like that. Talk about money, and my mum suddenly talks about who I message. I don't really see the link in that.

I have curfews at this age. I know they are concerned and stuff, but I sometimes feel that I need a little bit more space. My brother goes to concerts, my mum doesn't say much. I say I wanna go to a band concert that costs way cheaper than what my brother goes to, and she starts to say things to try and not make me go. Things like, "Next time then go.". Seriously? I said I want to join band and you're like, why not switch to other CCAs for now? Part of the reason why I didn't stay in AJ Band was because I saw my mum doing housework at night, on her birthday. Know how I felt when I saw that? I didn't stay because I didn't want to go against her. 

Sometimes I feel that she doesn't understand me. She can suddenly say something, which has no link to the current topic, and insult me with that. I mean, seriously, why? Does it make you happy to say things like that in my face? Just because I try to come up with some jokes, or I voice out my own opinions, you call me a 反对党 (opposition party). Seriously, why? I ALREADY HAD ONE FUCKING STUPID NICKNAME BY SOME IDIOTS IN MY SEC SCH, NOW YOU GIVE ME ONE MORE. 

Speaking of which, my days in sec sch wasn't very pleasant. THANKS TO THE STUPID NICKNAME PEOPLE KEPT CALLING ME WITH, I didn't enjoy my 4 years in sec sch. Okay, I enjoyed some parts of it, but most of the time, I did things alone. I liked being alone because of all the shit in sec sch. Sure, I met some great people, but I still felt that being alone is the way to go. I bet you don't know about all these because I never told you about them. Never. All you knew about me during my sec sch period was that I treated my friends better than I treated my family. I showed my mum the most concern compared to my brother when my mum needed it the most. I stood up for my mum in front of my dad when they quarreled and even brought them back together. Then they turn around and say I'm like this. Especially my dad. I can't stand the FUCKING way he scolds me sometimes. I mean, stop saying that I treat my friends better than I treat the family when you are guilty of that as well.

I don't how to wash clothes, wash shoes, and I don't know how to cook. 

I really hope my parents would know about what truly happened to me in sec sch. I bet none of my friends do either. Not the full story. I want someone to be there, to listen to EVERYTHING that has happened to me since Primary 5. 

Just somebody.