To be loved. What is the feeling like? I can't believe I'm saying this right now, but I miss being in a relationship, somehow. Okay wait, no. Probably just the memories that I am missing, not the actual act of being in a relationship.

Well, my past 2 (or some may consider it 3) relationships haven't been perfect, but I did learn a lot of things from it. My 1st one involved a lot of quarreling. True that quarreling did bring us closer together afterwards, however it left a scar and eventually things didn't work out. My 2nd one, however, was the complete opposite. 0 quarrels recorded. Really. A big, fat 0. But things didn't turn out quite the way we expected it to. Or at least, the way I had expected it to be. Negligence was a key factor in the break up, and till this day, I still am very sorry for it.

Guess time will only tell, whether if I will get into a relationship again or not. Truth be told, I don't really know if I want to be in one or not. It's technically a bad idea to do so, judging by the time period (short, hectic JC life ain't meant for messing around). But being with that special someone does bring joy to every day, helps to make everything more bearable.

Some may say that friends are a source if happiness. Yes, I do agree.  But then again, I am the 'loner' type of person. I never knew how I became like this, I just sort of did. Don't really like to feel very emotionally and physically attached to people. And right now, I am feeling that clinging feeling. So yeah, pardon me if I were to distance myself from you. (That is, if you even know of the hat existence of this virtual space, this blog of mine).

Can't be helped. I am who I am. If I am better off by myself, then yeah, why not?